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The Eternal Youth FrolicI have Outwitted,Outlasted,Outstudied the Obnoxious O levels.My last paper has presented me the key to eternal youth frolic. So here i go! Going to release October's Anxiety out of My system. The world has now become my playground. Its Waiting for me.
Who would have known, the day of my long awaited youthfulness has come!. The last 2 mins of the final paper got the best of my anxiety. I couldnt wait, could think of anything else other than all the " FunTertainment" that i've been looking forward to. In simple, i would never have to worry about Not-studyuing, Not-reaching home early..and plus!! i could have eternal fun with my darling friends for REAL now.. No regrets whatsoever... HEHE!!
How do i feel right now? not exactly sure. But there a slight ray of happiness every now and then. But wad happened to the other portion of that "happy" feeling?
Lost somewhere i guess.. waiting for me to look for it out there. and maybe, just maybe, the journey towards it will bring priceless happiness, something worth the time and effort. so i guess its just somewhere out there, waiting for me to come to presence.
i feel that its hard to pour my heart out to my close ones . The fear of being the victim of judgement, a figure that people dont expect u to be or act like one. And when u finally come out clean, people looked at u differently. As if ur some foreign being trapped inside the body of the of whom your close ones refer to you as.and because of that, you dont want to give the slightest hint about the most intimate details of urself as you might jeopardise the friendship and the way they feel "comfortable" looking at you.
Yes, i am sensitive. I cant deny that side of myself. some may find it romantic.. some may find it gay-ish..i guess only certain people find this exceptionally normal..
At this very moment, i dont know who are my friends and foe anymore.. i can only say a handfull that are my friends.. and others i wished i was friends with..and others are still in my Hope-list..for now, i dunnoe who is who...which is which...
i walked away as if u don matter to me
but actually u do,
Something has got me thinking, When will i ever find Love?
Many say love is priceless, Blind,heartful,rewarding, and worth-the-wait. Many times i've wondered why arent i tht spontaneous in hooking up with girls like other guys.. i mean, my best friends around me already found love in one way or another. Love from Family, Friends and lovers are theoratically different in many perpectives. Family love comes natural, u protect, u foght for. Love from Friends is when it matters to ur BFFs.. we care for each other and we Look out for one another. Love from ur lover, is where u find comfort, someone who u let out ur most intimate feelings about anything to, someone for u to care about and will get back the same care in return, completely different when u let out feelings to a friends. To be Frank, sometimes we wont let out those intimiate feelings to friends cos it could be too personal. I dont know.
All these years i've avoided myself to stay away from Love. Its like taboo for me now. This has definitely been the weakness i cant seem to face. I be-little myself too much.Cant seem to find the one aspect that i can be really proud about.Like really be proud about. Anyways, these things never happened to me at all. Could it be the mindset i have? or something else i dunno or never thought about. For now, Single is definitely no a status for me. More like Deprived/apprehensive
Till then...Good night
